TRUTH TALK | DOWNTOWN DISNEY RE-OPENING

TRUTH TALK | DOWNTOWN DISNEY RE-OPENING

Downtown Disney re-opened about three weeks ago. I did not go on opening day or week…I waited. Why? There were three main reasons: COVID cases were surging in Southern California, I couldn’t handle my anxiety, and I wanted to make sure it was safe.

I am an annual pass holder and have been one since about 1999. This is the longest I have ever gone without going to Disneyland and it has been so hard. Disneyland is my happy place. I literally forget all my problems when I am there and always have the best time. The parks have been closed since mid March and I just happened to renew my pass the week before the closure. I know…poor timing but I would have never guessed COVID was going to be this intense.

I had a lot of reservations about going but I did a lot of research before I went. I watched countless vlogs on YouTube, stalked people on Instagram stories, and talked to personal friends to see what their experience was like. I honestly was leaning towards waiting it out for the parks to open but to be honest…my soul was needing some Disney magic. I needed something to make me feel happy so I decided to go.

I got there around 10 a.m. and it wasn’t crowded at all! I got to walk straight into World of Disney and had a pleasant shopping experience. I was probably in there for about thirty minutes. After I got some snacks (because who doesn’t need a churro?) I walked right into the Dress Shop and the Disney Gallery. I waited about ten minutes in line for the confectionary store. I grabbed some lunch at Naples (also no wait to get seated) and was comfortable (far enough away from other parties) to take off my mask. This was the first time I had eaten at a restaurant since quarantine started. I spent about two and a half hours in Downtown Disney and on the way out, there were definitely a lot more people coming in.

Was it worth it? For me, yes it was. I loved walking around in a familiar place hearing Disney Park music everywhere I went. I stood in front of both gates and soaked it in. I definitely felt a little emotional being so close and not being able to go in but happy because I was there. I think that if you are planning on eating and doing some shopping it is definitely worth it. If you are just going because you miss Disneyland it might not be but it is totally up to you! I felt very safe. There were countless amounts of sanitizing stations and they were controlling how many people were in stores.

TRUTH TALK: ANXIETY OVER COVID-19

TRUTH TALK: ANXIETY OVER COVID-19

I am not going to lie to you guys. These past two weeks have been the WORST. I was dealing with horrible anxiety that made me physically ill and I did not get up off my couch for three days straight. But, I’m jumping ahead…let me start at the beginning.

At the beginning of the month when I went to the beach (post here) I ate at a Hawaiian BBQ place. Fast forward to a week later, my boyfriend and I drove back out just to get that food again. We had planned to take it to-go and eat in the car before we went home, When we arrived at the restaurant it was closed with a sign on the door saying they were closed for a week for a deep cleaning. We found that strange so my boyfriend went to their website and saw a more detailed notice: someone who worked there had tested positive for COVID-19. We instantly panicked.

We both felt fine but I still was nervous. A few days later we went for a walk and I mentioned to him that my allergies were bothering me and my throat felt itchy. He instantly asked if it was COVID. I told him honestly that I didn’t think so but the idea was in my head now and I couldn’t stop the “what-if” voice in my head. Days later my throat was still itchy and I had anxiety through the roof. It was so bad that I became physically ill for a whole day and spent the other two on the couch resting. The thought of going to the store or being around family made it worse.

Because I was feeling so ill, I really thought that I had COVID and it made everything worse! I reached out to my best friend who also deals with anxiety and told her what was going on. She also recently was going through something similar and got tested. She came back negative. She told me that it is unlikely that I have it and what I was experiencing were allergies and anxiety. Did I mention that she is also in the medical field? So I trust her opinion.

This past Friday was the two-week mark and as I am writing this I feel completely fine. I know that I need to be better at not letting anxiety consume me and not freaking out over “what-if’s”.

These are some crazy times we are living in and no one would have guessed we would be here in the middle of a global pandemic. I can only hope that we are closer to the end and that we spread love and kindness to all. Everyone is dealing with something wether we know it or not.

Stay safe my friends!

-Lyndsay

WEDNESDAY WISHLIST | SUMMER VACATION VIBES

WEDNESDAY WISHLIST | SUMMER VACATION VIBES

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Summer is in full swing and I am making the most of this quarantine summer vacation. This week I was suppose to be in Europe BUT you know…COVID things.

Anyway, I am planning on living my best summer backyard life at my cousins house. I have made myself a pool oasis and have been diving head first into all things summer.

I am loving this pool I bought at Target and these adorable swan drink floats from Amazon. I also love these two swimsuits! This one is so fun and this one is a great classic basic.

These shorts are so great for summer! You can dress them up or down or even throw on top of a one piece suit. I also got this swim coverup from Amazon and it is amazing!

I also have been loving this creamsicle nail color as well as this versed lip oil. Skincare is definitely important when spending time in the sun so this mineral spray sunscreen from Sun Bum is everything!

What makes you feel like you are on a summer vacation in lockdown? I would love to know!

-Lyndsay

SUMMER FAB FIT FUN BOX | UNBOXING

SUMMER FAB FIT FUN BOX | UNBOXING

I previously shared that due to COVID-19 and my job closing down that I had canceled my subscriptions. I also recently shared that I re-subscribed to my XIO subscription. The only other subscription I re-subscribed to is Fab Fit Fun and I am so excited for it! I wanted to share with you my box for summer 2020.

IN MY BOX:

  • L*SPACE Tie Dye Towel $58
  • HydroPeptide Moisture Reset Face Oil $120
  • TOMS Sydney Sunglasses $58
  • Terre Mere Aloe and Tea Toner $54
  • The Lifestyle Co Beach Mist After Sun Spray $42
  • Winky Lux Uni-Brow Universal Eyebrow Pencil $16
  • MakeupDrop Hybrid Makeup Applicator $20
  • Spongelle Coconut Verbena Hand Cream $18

I really love everything that I got (except for the facial oil-more on that later). I have been using the Beach Mist constantly as well as my sunnies!

ADD ON:

  • Love You To The Moon Bundle $44.99

I decided to add on this bundle as well and I love every-single-thing! The hair mist works so well on my flyaways and I have been wearing my opal necklace everyday. I also have been adding the face oil to my night moisturizer and it has been so nice!

WHAT I SHOULD HAVE GOT:

so long story short: I had some issues with the website when it came to customizing and found out weeks later that one of my selections was not what I had picked. I got up super early to get the Michael Kors Passport Holder but instead it got switched to the “surprise me” option (which I hate). I literally pay the primo so I can choose just about everything. I ended up getting the facial oil which sucks because I had added on a bundle with a facial oil. ANYWAY…I talked to customer service and they were so great and sent me the passport holder!

If you want to sign up you can click this link to get $10 off your first box!: https://share.fabfitfun.com/x/2lqM0m

Do you get a Fab Fit Fun box? If so, I would love to know what you got!

-Lyndsay

QUARANTINE BEACH DAY

QUARANTINE BEACH DAY

Ever since quarantine started I have stayed home. I mean obviously I go to the grocery store and I will go on the occasional drive and get coffee but, I haven’t been out and about. The past week or so, as things have been re-opening, my boyfriend and I have been wanting to go do something. We constantly are at war with what is safe and what we want to do. Of course safety wins out 100% of the time.

We really have been wanting to go to the beach, which is about a 45 to 50 minute drive. I also want to preface that we are the kind of people who are totally okay with going for long drives even if it is for coffee or food. So when we started talking about the beach we both agreed to drive down with all intentions of stay BUT if we don’t feel safe about it or there are way too many people we would get food and come home.

Even though there was a chance we weren’t going to stay, I still packed and dressed as if we were going to be there for the day! I, of course, packed some quarantine essentials like a face mask and hand sanitizer.

{Beach Bag (Old)- Similar Here | Hat (Old)- Similar Here | Water Bottle-Can Only Buy In Store | Clear Bag (Old)- Similar Here | Chapstick | Lotion | Beach Blanket (Old)- Similar Here | Hand Sanitizer (Not Available) -Similar Here}

When we got there the weather was gorgeous! We found a very secluded spot on the beach and felt very safe and comfortable. We wore our masks until we set up our spot and got settled. Once I was ready to relax I did take off my mask but my face was covered with my giant sun hat.

We spent about 2 hours there and decided to bounce out earlier than anticipated because people started crowding us and we didn’t feel comfortable about it.

I will say, the beach was super clean and I felt very safe with the lack of people (well less than normal). Here are some pictures I took while I was there.

{Bathing Suit Coverup | Sandals | Sunglass (old)- Similar Here | Face Mask (homemade) | Earrings (Not Available)- Similar Here}

I know that there is going to be another huge surge out here and my boyfriend and I both felt that this was our one opportunity to go out before quarantine ends. We have been so cooped up that this was a much needed beach trip. We enjoyed soaking up the sun while we could and heavily sanitized after.

Have you made any quick trips to the beach or anywhere else? I would love to know your thoughts and how you feel/felt about it! This definitely was a different beach experience than normal.

-Lyndsay

TRUTH TALK | EUROPE TRIP CANCELED

TRUTH TALK | EUROPE TRIP CANCELED

When my cruise got canceled (that post here) I was secretly hoping that everything would be okay by the time my Europe trip came around…sadly, it wasn’t. This trip had been planned since December of 2019 and honestly it was my dream trip and a very necessary trip for me to go on.

Growing up I dreamt of going to Paris. It has always been on the top of my travel to-do list but there was one important aspect of my trip: my grandmother. We were always super close and had a plan to go “one day” together. We would sit in cafes and do nothing but eat bread and cheese (and wine). Two years ago she passed away. We never got the chance to go. So, I made a promise to myself that I would go for the both of us; that I wouldn’t put it off. That was going to be THIS trip.

My dad had an opportunity to do some work for a few days in England. When he told me he wanted to do a small family trip to Europe before he had to work; I saw it as a sign. I thought, “Wow! This is actually happening…this is my chance”. We had everything planned out, our tickets were bought, and (of course) I started shopping.

When the trip got canceled I was broken-hearted. This was my dream trip. I was going to Paris and London. I was FINALLY going to stand in front of the Eiffel Tower, tour museums, and eat all the pastries. Obviously this was out of our control and when we bought our tickets there was no way we could have known that the world was going to come to a stop.

I know that one day I will get there (we are already talking about going in 2021) but it still doesn’t take away the sting.

Have you had any trips that got canceled that made you really sad? Leave me a comment down below because misery loves company.

-Lyndsay

TRUTH TALK | WEIGHT GAIN, FINALS, & NO MOTIVATION

TRUTH TALK | WEIGHT GAIN, FINALS, & NO MOTIVATION

These last two weeks have been ROUGH. I haven’t posted because I have been dealing with a lot of other things…

I had finals for school, my Mom’s birthday, Mother’s Day, and my anniversary with my boyfriend. I have had zero motivation to do anything which made my final papers and exams extremely difficult. I feel like I have had a mental fog the past few weeks and I can’t shake it. I don’t know if it’s because I have had very little interaction with people or if it’s from being stuck inside for 50+ days. Needless to say, I have been struggling.

I have been going through a roller-coaster of emotions with so many things being celebrated. I have been trying to make the best out of every situation but my anniversary has been the hardest. We were suppose to be on a cruise for our 10 year. It’s a big one and we wanted to celebrate in a big way. As the day came, I felt increasingly sad. And, it’s not just because I don’t get to go on a cruise (although, that does contribute), it’s beacuase we didn’t get to really celebrate. We couldn’t go anywhere or really do anything and it SUCKED. We still had dinner but it just wasn’t the same. I actually tried really hard to make it feel special so I dressed up and did full blown makeup (the exact outfit and makeup I was planning on doing on our cruise) and surprised my boyfriend. It actually felt so good to get dressed up even though we didn’t go anywhere.

I also have been dealing with 10 pounds of weight gain which I’m not super happy about. I never was a hardcore fitness person before quarantine but I was active. I walked around campus (which is huge) twice a week, I did a lot of walking around at work, and I would occasionally walk in the mornings before work. Not having those every day activities that kept me on my feet has definitely caught up with me. For me its not about the number on the scale but how I feel and I don’t feel great. It also is definitely affecting my mood as well. I find I am super cranky and its like a downward spiral of bad mood and not moving off the couch.

Honestly, I have been a mess. I am trying my best to look on the positive side and to deal with my struggles as they come but TBH it is hard! I am going to put more effort into being more active, even if that means pacing back-and-forth in my living room, and getting my fair share of fresh air. I just know that if I don’t start making some changes I’m pretty sure I’m going to be worse off.

How have you been doing? I really would like to know even if you are living your best life right now or crying every day. I hope that it is the former of the two but life right now is hard for everyone and it is so easy to get overwhelmed. Sometimes talking about it really helps and just know you are not alone.

-Lyndsay

TRUTH TALK | QUARANTINE EXTENDED & PEAK WEEK

TRUTH TALK | QUARANTINE EXTENDED & PEAK WEEK

Well…it happened. Towards the middle of last week California got some pretty heavy news: we are quarantined until mid May. It was pretty hard to swallow because first of all, that’s a lot longer than anticipated and for me, that was the week my work was suppose to open back up. That is obviously not going to happen now. That leaves me out of work for longer than planned.

When my work shut down I applied for unemployment and did get approved mid March. To this day I have received $0. Things are getting tough as my bill due dates are approaching. I honestly am extremely nervous that it will be another few weeks before I receive any money. I know that a lot of people are applying and that makes the process slower but it’s still hard.

We just experienced our “peak week” (or so they say) and it was hard to justify leaving the house at all. I was dying to go on a walk or go to my local coffee shop but I couldn’t do it. I didn’t want to risk anything. It also has been raining steadily all week which did help to stay in but as the weeks go on, it is getting much harder.

I am really hoping that things get better by May for all our sakes! I think we all need a good dose of normalcy and are aching to get back to our daily grind. I miss driving to go to work and to school and seeing all the people in my life.

I hope you guys are hanging in there! Have you experienced your peak week yet?

-Lyndsay

FRIDAY’S FIVE | TAKING TIME FOR ME

FRIDAY’S FIVE | TAKING TIME FOR ME

-some Easter goodies from one of my favorite shops-

-trying out some new face masks-

-doing activities that bring me peace-

– enjoying the rainy weather in all its glory –

– enjoying all the candles I have stashed away –

This week has been a much slower pace and place of mind. The past two weeks I was trying to stay super busy, as to not get bored, and I decided that I deserved a break physically and mentally. I think in such scary times it is really important to take time for your mental well being and I was completely neglecting that.

During this rainy, gloomy week I have been enjoying things I love but normally don’t get to do because Im typically not home when it rains. I have been enjoying relaxing on the couch, binging Hulu and coloring in my adult coloring books. I also have been enjoying my coffee every morning more so then normal. I usually am doing multiple things while getting my caffeine fix but this week I have been leisurely drinking it.

I recently placed an order from Shop A to Z on Instagram that was an Easter mystery egg and I received them in the mail! They are so cute and were definitely what the doctor ordered. I typically spend easter at Disneyland with my family but obviously that is not happening this year due to Coronavirus. We usually do their Easter egg hunt and have been collecting the eggs ever since. So, getting some sort of Easter egg is super special and definitely gives me some normalcy during this time (and happiness).

I have been focusing a lot on my skincare this week (which I haven’t done in FOREVER). I have been trying out some Trader Joe’s face masks that have been in my bathroom since December. It feels so good to just leisurely do my skincare and have it not feel like “a thing I have to do before bed or after work”. I feels like a luxury and I am loving it!

I’m sure this will come as no surprise but I have a large stash of Bath and Body Works candles. I typically love to burn them in the fall and winter. Unfortunately I was so busy during those times that I didn’t have a chance to really enjoy them. Well I am making up for lost time! I have been burning candles like there is no tomorrow and have been loving every second of it!

I hope that you are all finding ways of getting in some me time during this past week and I am also hoping you have a wonderful Easter! This Easter will be extremely different for a lot of us and I think it is helpful to try and find those silver linings and focus on the positive!

-Lyndsay

TRUTH TALK | MY CRUISE WAS CANCELED

TRUTH TALK | MY CRUISE WAS CANCELED

Last year I booked a 4 day cruise to Catalina Island and Ensenada, Mexico. This would have been my very first cruise and I was beyond excited! Growing up I always heard people say how they were going on a cruise to (insert fabulous location here). I’ve always wanted to go on one but because most people in my life have motion sickness…let’s just say it never worked out.

My boyfriend and I are celebrating our 10 year anniversary in May and we thought a cruise would be a pretty ideal way to celebrate. We had it all booked and paid for, our excursions were picked out, and we were starting to buy things we were taking with us. When news of coronavirus started to reach us we were playing it by ear with our cruise to see if it was going to be canceled. Two months went by and the cruise line we booked was giving incentive to NOT cancel so we were still holding out that it wasn’t going to be canceled.

About a week ago I got the dreaded email that said our cruise was canceled and I was crushed. I booked this cruise in January of 2019. I had been dreaming about sitting on the deck with a Pina colada in hand looking out at the blue ocean. I also had so many posts planned here about what to buy, what to pack, travel diaries, and outfit inspiration.

I know that the cruise is being canceled for good reasons but I still feel I have the right to feel really sad about it all. My boyfriend has been super sweet about the whole thing reassuring me that we will go on a cruise once things get back to normal and we will find another special way to celebrate. I have another super special trip planned in July which I am praying doesn’t get canceled.

There is so much uncertainty going on right now and it is so easy to feel sad, scared, anxious, and overwhelmed. These are trying times and I honestly was keeping my sense of “normalcy” with the things I had planned in the future. Now that those things are being canceled I am starting to feel the weight of it all.

I hope you are all doing well and to any of you who have had plans canceled due to coronavirus know that I feel for you. Stay safe out there!

-Lyndsay