TRUTH TALK | WORK CLOSING, LOSS OF A FAMILY MEMBER + HEALTH ISSUES

TRUTH TALK | WORK CLOSING, LOSS OF A FAMILY MEMBER + HEALTH ISSUES

I know it has been a while since I’ve had a heart-to-heart with you.

And not to make excuses, but life has been hard lately. Yes, I am going to Spain and I am very excited for it, BUT that doesn’t mean everything is sunshine and rainbows over here.

In January, I lost my uncle. It was a hard loss for my family and it’s a loss that we can’t even begin to navigate. He passed in the hospital, and due to COVID we weren’t allowed to see him which meant we never got to say goodbye.

A week later I learned that the business I have been working for the last seven years is closing permanently in March (like in a month). At the end of next month, my life will be completely different. I will have no steady income, no coworkers, and no more commute.

The same week I found out about my job, I learned that I have high cholesterol and have to loose about five to ten pounds and go on a diet.

It has been overwhelming for me to deal with all of these things all at once. I have honestly been clinging to all the good things in my life to help get me through. When things feel “too much” for me I always try to list five things I am grateful for and it always makes me feel better.

If you are going through a tough time in your life, please know you are not alone.

-Lyndsay

VALENTINE’S WEEK | FRIDAY’S FIVE

VALENTINE’S WEEK | FRIDAY’S FIVE

{Getting dressed up for Valentines Day for once}

{having a cozy date night in front of the fire with pizza}

{Celebrating Wendy’s 5th Birthday}

{Getting some new Stoney Clover}

{Enjoying my morning coffee in bed}

This week was all about the love in all aspects. I worked all day on Valentine’s Day but my boyfriend surprised me with coffee, flowers, and my Wendy girl. It was so sweet and very unexpected (he normally is not into Valentine’s Day gestures). I also have been practicing more self care this week in any way I can. Sometimes it’s lighting a candle at night and reading, sometimes it’s doing a full multi-step skincare routine, but mostly it is lounging in bed in the morning to drink my coffee.

We also celebrated Wendy’s 5th birthday this week which is so crazy to me. Like how is she five already?! It still seems like she is two. We started the night before with a cozy date. The three of us had pizza (she just gets the leftover crust) and we watched Disney+ in front of the fire. Then on her actual birthday we got In’N’Out and cupcakes. We obviously watched Peter Pan because that is where her name came from!

I also finally received my Stoney Clover Lane orders from the High Tea Collection and I am obsessed. I can’t wait to customize them.

-Lyndsay

MY BIRTHDAY WEEK | NOVEMBER 9, 2021

MY BIRTHDAY WEEK | NOVEMBER 9, 2021

This past week I celebrated my birthday.

Usually, I am not one to do a lot for my birthday, but after last year I decided it was time I started celebrating myself. This year I did all the things that I love, and was not able to do last year.

I went to Disneyland, went to a concert, and treated myself to a Starbucks and a manicure. I also got treated to a birthday brunch to kick-off my birthday week. There were some plans that had to be pushed back for various reasons, so coming up I have a dinner, a haircut, and a birthday cake.

Being at Disneyland was probably the high-point for me because I did everything I would have never done before– I wore a dress, had a crown, asked for a birthday button, and welcomed all the attention. It honestly, was really nice and made my short trip a unique one. I will say, now that I have finally jumped on the birthday train, I now really want to celebrate one at Walt Disney World.

What do you normally do to celebrate your birthday?

-Lyndsay

IT’S BEEN A WHILE…

IT’S BEEN A WHILE…

So, I have been a little MIA lately.

This has not been intentional. I honestly have been working a LOT ( like 7 days one week, 6 days the next) and I am E X H A U S T E D.

Some weeks are better than others, but honestly I have been too tired to keep up with posting, life, and work. I feel like I blinked and August is almost over. We are quickly coming up to my favorite time of year and, starting now I am really going to prioritize putting time aside, not only for myself, but for this blog.

Since it has been a while since my last post here is the short version of some fun things I have done since my last post:

{I got to go to Disneyland again, and this time it was SO much better!}

{I went on a Warner Brothers Studio Tour, and got to go into the actual FRIENDS set}

{I went to breakfast at the Grand Californian hotel purely to eat Mickey waffles.}

{I went to a Minor League Baseball game.}

{I FINALLY got my car back after too many repairs.}

I am so looking forward to the Fall and Halloween season and for all the fun things coming! September is going to be a busy month for me, but I can’t wait to share with you what I have planned very soon.

TRUTH TALK | GOING BACK TO WORK AFTER A YEAR

TRUTH TALK | GOING BACK TO WORK AFTER A YEAR

Well the day has finally come. My work has reopened after a fifteen months due to the pandemic.

I work at a theatre venue, which meant stricter opening requirements. I honestly didn’t think we were going to reopen yet, but here I am back at work. This honestly happened at an unideal time for me because not only was I in the middle of finals (and graduation), but I no longer have a car. I know that I have not mentioned it much, but back in January my car was stolen. I received no compensation for it, and it’s a long story that I am not going to go fully into at this moment.

I am very fortunate that my manager is being very flexible with my schedule to accommodate my needs (and plans I had previously made). Unfortunately, we are understaffed due to people not returning to work for various reasons and I am working 40 + hours a week.

I am honestly very exhausted every day and it hasn’t been the smoothest transition. There are so many things that have changed because of COVID, it almost seems things change daily, but the biggest change has been me. I have grown a lot during quarantine as a person, and I have really discovered healthy boundaries for myself. Dealing with people who get mad at me for just trying to do my job is something that I no longer take stock in. Things like that use to really weigh heavy on me, but now I honestly can’t be bothered, and I am proud of myself for that.

While going back has not been the best, or easiest, it has really shown me how strong I have become mentally while being in quarantine.

CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS IN JANUARY | FRIDAYS FIVE

CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS IN JANUARY | FRIDAYS FIVE

{Making mulled wine over a fire, and watching Muppets Christmas Carol}

{Baking cookies in matching jammies}

{Having a Nutcracker date night complete with charcuterie}

{Christmas dinner with my immediate family}

{Spending loads of time with this precious girl)

This week has been a great week. It literally was a condensed version of December, but in one week. My boyfriend and I have spent every day doing the Christmas things we had planned to do in December before Christmas (pre-COVID). We have a handful of Christmas traditions that we have done since we started dating, but since Christmas was delayed I wanted to amp things up a bit to make them feel more special.

We had our annual Muppets Christmas Carol movie night, but this year we watched it outside on a projector, made mulled wine and had a fire pit. It was the best way to kick things off, and now there is no watching it any other way! I always watch the Nutcracker ballet during December. This year I decided to include my beau, and got him to agree with the promise of champagne and charcuterie. He isn’t much of a ballet person, but I think I changed his mind this year.

Towards the end of the week we had our version of Christmas Eve on Wednesday. We celebrated by wearing matching pjs, making waffles, baking Christmas cookies and watching the Grinch (another movie tradition). It was a good day well spent, and it really made it feel like it was Christmas even though we are almost through December. On Thursday we had our Christmas dinner followed by presents. My household had not opened a single present until we had our “official Christmas day”.

I think one of my favorite things has been spending so much time with Wendy. I was not able to see her all of December as well as a good part of January. We’ve spent a lot of time this week playing, snuggling and there have been lots of treats.

TRUTH TALK | I HAD COVID-19

TRUTH TALK | I HAD COVID-19

It still seems so surreal to be typing this– I had COVID-19.

In this post I talked about how I was exposed to COVID. I stayed in isolation for 10 days, but I caught it from an unexpected source. At the beginning of my isolation, I asked my parents to do a small grocery shop for me so I could live out of my room. A few days after they dropped off my stuff, I noticed that they were staying home from work. I called to ask why and was met with “we are just tired.” I trusted that it was just them working too hard, but I really shouldn’t have. They stayed home for days, and I noticed them starting to cough, sleep all the time and not eating very much. I instantly became worried. I urged them both to go get tested.

At the end of my 10 day isolation I developed a sore throat. I got tested the next day, and a day later I received a positive result. My anxiety went through the roof to the point that I was feeling more unwell from the anxiety than the COVID. I did two things– ask my boyfriend to do a Target run for me and tell my parents they had to go get tested.

Both of my parents were positive for COVID, and I contracted it from them. The week of Christmas my dad was admitted to the hospital for Pneumonia and COVID. It was a hard week, but we were relieved that there was room for him, and he was getting the care he needed. My mom and I recovered at home.

I was extremely lucky that my symptoms were very mild. I only experienced loss of taste and smell, along with fatigue. My dad is still in the recovery phase for his Pneumonia, and was not so lucky with what he experienced.

As I write this I am fully recovered.

I had a large lack of posts in November and December– this is why. Now that we are in a new year, I am going to be more active on here. I still plan on doing a Christmas post even though it is late. I am choosing to do this because I started this blog to tell my story (and for travel, but that never happened). My Christmas got postponed because of COVID, but I have every intention of still celebrating and sharing with you all.

I hope you all had a lovely holiday season, and I can’t wait to celebrate!

-Lyndsay

10 LESSONS I LEARNED FROM 2020

10 LESSONS I LEARNED FROM 2020

As 2020 comes to an end (finally), I have been reflecting on a lot of different things that have happened throughout the year. 2020 had a myriad of challenges, triumphs and surprises. Part of me feels like we are still in March back when everything shut down, and part of me is so ready to begin anew. It is easy to think about all the bad that has happened this year, but TBH I am thankful for all the lessons I have learned. Some were easier than others, but they all really put things into perspective.

  1. BEING HAPPY WITH MY HOME IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN I REALIZED.

At the beginning of quarantine I had a very un-ideal set-up at home. I had no desk for school, my living room was extremely dysfunctional and I was struggling mentally with being stuck inside. After I decided to purchase what I needed, and spruce up what I had, my life was all the better for it. I found I was much happier and I was able to accept my situation after I was happy with the rooms I inhabited.

2. RESTING IS PRODUCTIVE.

This is something that I had struggled with for years. I have a chronic back condition, and there are days where I literally can’t move for hours at a time. Every time I stopped to just rest in bed, I always felt that I was doing myself a dis-service because I wasn’t being “productive”. This year has definitely taught me that resting is not only good for my mental health, but also it is productive for my body.

3. I NEED TO GIVE MYSELF MORE CREDIT.

This was one of the biggest take-aways from 2020. I can handle much more that I like to give myself credit for. I have survived a lot of things, especially this year, that I didn’t think I would be able to handle. My mind often gets the better of me, but it is time that I start living up to my potential, and realize that I can handle anything life throws at me.

4. I AM MORE MOTIVATED IN A CLEAN ENVIRONMENT.

I cannot get anything done when I am around a mess. Quarantine at my house has definitely seen some really messy days, and in those days I was extremely unmotivated to do a single thing. When I am surrounded by a clean space, I am much more likely to do what I need to do instead of sitting on the couch binging Netflix.

5. I WILL NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR HOARDING HAND SOAP, HAND SANITIZER AND CANDLES EVER AGAIN.

I use to be so embarrassed by my hoarding of these things, but no more. I never once ran out of soap or hand sanitizer during 2020. It was such a blessing to not worry about sanitization on the go. I also learned that candles are very comforting to me. I blew threw my stash early on, and stocked up again mid-year.

6. INVESTING IN TECHNOLOGY IS IMPORTANT.

I am the type to only replace computers and phones when they are on their last leg. I fortunately had upgraded both in 2018/2019 and I am so thankful I did. I can’t imagine how stressed I would be if my laptop and/or phone were on their last leg this year when everything went virtual. I probably would have cried a lot more. I am an avid Apple fan and people would always judge me for wanting “boogie” technology, but I always would respond with it’s worth it to know my products will last. I stand by that more than ever.

7. I’M VERY HAPPY COOKING ALMOST EVERY MEAL.

During this year I mostly never left my house. The one place I would visit consistently was the grocery store. TBH if I was still working I would never had gone as frequently as I did in 2020 because I would be eating out way more. I realized that I love buying produce and cooking. I really enjoy making meals and getting creative with leftover produce. Don’t get me wrong, I still love eating out, but I am perfectly okay eating out less.

8. SELF CARE MAKES A HUGE DIFFERENCE.

I have never been the best at self care because I always felt too busy to do it. This year really forced me to lean into self care with all the hard things I faced. I have learned that it’s okay to not be okay, and that it’s okay to do what ever makes you feel better. I personally have treated myself more to home decor, jewelry, and Disney related items this year. These things gave me joy daily and therefore an investment into my self care. On days when I felt overwhelmed, I could pull out a straw charm and Disney cozy to put on my coffee and I instantly was happier. It’s all about doing little things for yourself to make your soul happy and stay sane.

9. DEALING WITH ANXIETY IS A JOURNEY.

My anxiety was pretty much a roller coaster ride in 2020. There was so much unknown that we all faced this year, and for me it caused several spirals into anxiety. I have learned to accept that it’s okay to fear the unknown and that when I am feeling anxious it’s okay because these are hard times. I learned that there will be days where I am perfectly fine and there will be days I am not. It’s all part of the journey and every time I come out of an anxiety spiral I grow and get stronger.

10. BEING KIND AND CARING IS VERY POWERFUL.

I remember back in March the first time I went to the grocery store after lockdown. I had a travel sized pack of wipes with me. I was standing outside wiping down the cart handle when a lady walked up and realized there were no more wipes in the store’s dispenser and started to walk away. I called out to her and offered her a wipe from my pack. She burst into tears and thanked me. It was one of the most powerful things I experienced this year. Something so simple as giving a lysol wipe to a stranger was so meaningful to them. I will be honest, I am rarely on the receiving end of random kind acts, but I actively try to do them everyday for strangers. When I became sick with COVID, I was most definitely on the receiving end, and it made me very emotional. When people care, it is a very powerful thing.

I am not one to really make New Years resolutions, but I have always been a fan of reflection for the new year. 2020 has definitely taught me a lot about myself. I hope you all are staying safe, and are able to leave behind all the bad things this year has brought. There is hope that things will be better soon. I truly believe that we have the ability to make 2021 a better year.

– Lyndsay

TRUTH TALK | I WAS EXPOSED TO COVID

TRUTH TALK | I WAS EXPOSED TO COVID

It still seems surreal as I type this– I was exposed to COVID. As soon as I learned that I was in close contact with someone who had COVID, who wasn’t aware that they had been exposed until it was too late, I did two things. First– I scheduled myself a COVID test through my healthcare provider (more on that in a bit). Second– I grabbed some essentials and locked myself away to limit exposure from those I live with.

Due to this year, I have been actively working on my room, and making it as cozy and nice as possible (aka without breaking the bank). This worked in my favor because being stuck in my room would have been much more miserable if I had not made it enjoyable to be in. Since we are in the middle of the holiday season I had already put in some Christmas decorations, which TBH has been good for my mental state. When I got the call that I could possible have COVID I grabbed (with a gloves on) these items:

  • the Keurig from the kitchen
  • various snacks that did not require cooking or refrigeration
  • things to keep me entertained
  • my large Brita from the fridge
  • reusable cups
  • trash bags
  • extra supplies for my bathroom (tp, Kleenex, towels, ect.)
  • a large reusable bottle

As soon as I grabbed these things and put myself in lockdown, I called those who I lived with and filled them in on what was happening. They agreed to not touch my bedroom door or my bathroom door, and to contact me through texts and phone calls only. I also encouraged them to go get tested as well.

Speaking of testing, I went to go get tested the day after I heard the news. I impatiently waited two days for my results and when they finally came in…I was extremely annoyed. I got an inconclusive result. INCONCLUSIVE. They can’t tell if I have it or don’t have it. This was extremely frustrating. I have another test scheduled, and hopefully I will get a negative result.

So here I sit five days in, watching lots of Christmas movies from various streaming services, and trying to remain calm. I am taking lots of vitamins, resting, and trying not to get bored or anxious. I will be completely honest– it sucks. It is Christmas, and I had many plans with my boyfriend to do several Christmasy at-home dates, but we can’t do any of that now (at least for the time being). On the upside I am very fortunate that I have no symptoms, and I am able to be very isolated from others. If you want a more detailed post about the specifics of what I have or how I set up my room, leave me a comment down below. It’s been a very interesting transition, and if I can help any of you out there who do not have anyone to rely on right now for food (like myself), I would be so happy to share with you what I have done.

TRUTH TALK | WHERE I’VE BEEN

TRUTH TALK | WHERE I’VE BEEN

TBH I wasn’t planning on doing this post. When I sat down to do my monthly planning back in August, I had no idea what I was about to take on with school. I am currently in my Senior year. When I first registered for classes I was only able to get two (my major is impacted which makes getting classes hard). I was able to get on the waitlist for two other classes. Long story short, I was able to get the classes I was waitlisted for and am currently taking four. One of these classes is an event planning class (more on that in a bit) and the other is a social media class.

My social media class required me to start a blog (check it out here), and this one didn’t count. I had to create one from scratch with a narrowly focused topic. This has led me to put more focus on what I am producing for my school blog instead of putting the focus I want into this one. I have tried my best to produce posts but as the weeks go on it is getting harder.

My event planning class is a whole other story. We, as a class, are to plan an alumni night for our school department. There are five committees, each with a specific aspect for the event, and two event coordinators. In order to be a coordinator you had to apply for the position and give a speech as to why you would be right to handle the entire event and class. I applied, but didn’t think I would be chosen. I was wrong and got the job along with another girl. To say I was shocked was an understatement. Don’t get me wrong, I am thrilled to be in charge. It is just more than I expected to take on right now.

Even though I have been busy with my classes my favorite holiday is right around the corner– Halloween. I am going to be proactive with my posts, and try to get back to my regular posting schedule. I have so many things planned for October that I am really excited about. I wanted to keep you all in the loop so you know why I have been MIA lately.

Are you in school? How are you handling your class load? There are days where I feel like I am super on top of my assignments, and others where I feel like I won’t get everything done. It is such a balancing act (aka struggle)!

-Lyndsay